This morning I was up and enjoying the morning, till Patrick got up 30 minutes later. I like to have time to myself for a bit, but oh, no, not today.
He started going out to the garage and pulling out our Christmas decorations. OMG! I wasn't in the mood to do that just yet. Not only that, he insisted yesterday he wanted me to make pretzels this weekend. OH, where was I? Thinking I could pick when to make them, OH, NO! He wanted them today! Then I wanted to work on the laundry as it was getting too much for me. Plus I hadn't touched the kitty litter in almost a week, so needed to that. I can go on! So, I got testy with him. He backed off and figured to stay away from me with his needs. I told him I would do the decorating tomorrow or Monday. I really didn't care if we had a tree this year. We didn't have Thanksgiving, which is my favorite, and that's what gets me excited about the Christmas season. But NOPE, that didn't happen.
I did what I needed to do - yes the pretzels!
They were really good - the best I have done yet. But I was disappointed they didn't look like pretzels with the wholes. I tried. I will work on that next time.
Then I was chatting of and on, on discord with the group that was kicked out of the kingdom. We are all fed up with the bullying.
I have made it clear, more than once in that game, that I have dyslexia. I believe that is what got me into trouble when I posted something. I seriously don't care anymore. I wasn't asked about it.
People with dyslexia are very self-conscious. We worry about everything. We think at times it's our fault and we worry about how people perceive (sp) us. - See like can't spell. As a child growing up with it, I was teased for being stupid. I had a teach yell at me saying I was dumb and retorted. So, I have heard it all. I live with people who think they are better or smarter than me. They tell me how I don't know what I'm talking about or that I'm doing things wrong. I look at life and everything differently than a normal person. I find easier and quicker ways to do things. I'm smarter than the average bear. AND I don't care for people who treat me with disrespect. So, with the game, I took it personally - which I shouldn't have - and I was fretting over this and that. Today, I told myself "enough of this sh**" and move on. I need to relax and not stress! I like relaxing games, which this was till a few days ago. Now, I have to deal with getting myself back to enjoying my day, even if I play games, and get away from bullying me out of the kingdom. Just get out. It was a game I played for over a year. Now I have other games I can play, so this is fine. I'm moving on. I'm okay with that. NOW I understand what social media does!! Man! I understand why some people think they need to break something or even commit suicide. OMG, that shocks me! So, I am just going to "chill" and play a couple other games, play in the other kingdom and slowly walk away from this. I don't need or want it in my life.
So, today, I was being me. Baking, cleaning, fixing, and just chilling. It wasn't being Happy Stitching/Happy Quilting!
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